Last night I had a horrible work-nightmare.
In this nightmare I was in a ward and all of a sudden a patient (who just happened to be on a cardiac monitor) went into VT and then VF. I couldn't do anything about it. All my limbs felt like lead and I lost my voice. I couldn't call the help, couldn't bleep the crash team and I couldn't move close to the patient to help. It was awful. I woke up with my heart racing.
It's so strange because I've been at a crash call before and was fine. It was a bit scary, but I didn't freeze like in my nightmare.
Here's to hoping that I don't freeze up in real life.
Dr Sunshine xXx